Most of my actor friends don't believe it's possible to let go of it and be happy and for a while that was true for me. For the first two years I ached every day. And I had such bad dreams. But then I made the decision to start working on my little shop and all that went away.
Screenplays I didn't really care about journalism travel books getting my writer friends to write about their dreams or something. I just determined to write the books I had to write.
Things have gone beyond my wildest expectations and dreams and I feel like I've been given so many blessings in my life between my friendship with the guys in the band our wonderful audience being able to play this music and then my family.
The follow your dreams thing is really important because so many people are railroaded into taking other paths by their family their friends people who should be supportive going 'What are you talking about?' Even just seemingly regular career paths but if it's not what people expect for you they kind of react funny.
To this day some of my closest friends say 'Gaga you know everything's great. You're a singer your dreams have come true.' But still when certain things are said to you over and over again as you're growing up it stays with you and you wonder if they're true.
Friends... they cherish one another's hopes. They are kind to one another's dreams.
I couldn't have foreseen all the good things that have followed my mother's death. The renewed energy the surprising sweetness of grief. The tenderness I feel for strangers on walkers. The deeper love I have for my siblings and friends. The desire to play the mandolin. The gift of a visitation.
So for twelve miles I rode with Sherman and we became fast friends. He asked me all manner of questions on the way and I found that he knew my father well and remembered his tragic death in Salt Creek Valley.
Kurt and I weren't the closest of friends but I knew him well enough to be devastated by his death. For such a quiet person he was so excited about having a child.
I can't wait for my little sisters to start dating because it will really be fun to pick on their boyfriends.
And when I was young my family was perfectly nice. I write a lot about it as you noticed. But it was rather limited. I think I don't think anyone in my family would really feel I'd done them an injustice by saying that. We didn't see many people. There were many books. It was as if I wanted to get away from home.