He is still my father. He is still a person I know I could trust and he would never do anything against me. Once you're at the top there are not many people like that. People always want something from you.
In spite of the haze of speculation it is still something of a shock to find myself here coming to terms with an enormous trust placed in my hands and with the inevitable sense of inadequacy that goes with that.
No dance has ever turned out the way I thought it would because I trust enough that I can start something with some ideas and then it takes itself somewhere.
These are very subtle things of course and I don't expect everyone to pick them up consciously but I think that there is something there that you must be able to feel there is an energy at work that I must trust my audience will be able to pick up at some level.
One is that you have to take time lots of time to let an idea grow from within. The second is that when you sign on to something there will be issues of trust deep trust the way the members of a string quartet have to trust one another.
I learned something from that. If someone asks me something that I really don't want to do I say no. I have to trust that. And I'm not afraid to talk money.
For me it's always about first impressions. I trust my instincts. I love to prepare if it's something that requires training. But I don't like to prepare the psychology too much. I enjoy the psychology of the character but I work better from a first impression.
I feel I do my best work when it's all there on the page and I feel that the character is very vivid as I read the script and I'm not having to create stuff and trying to cobble together something. If I have to do that then I don't entirely trust what I'm doing.
It's just an unhealthy way to approach something trying to outdo your last thing. You've gotta trust evolution you've gotta trust that the bar is moving that you don't need to force the bar. It'll just happen.
Something goes wrong I yell at them -'Fix it'- whether it's their fault or not. You can only really yell at the players you trust.