My relationship with the journalists who covered the campaign was complicated. I often hid from the critical eye of their cameras and their omnipresent digital recorders wary of the critique implicit in every captured moment. But I also grew to respect and understand their passion for their work their love for the journey we were sharing.

The people at the record company had asked me if I could write a song about my life my relationship with God and where I'm from. Well I can't write a song on purpose my songs come in a moment of inspiration or desperation.

My brother and I had a real love-hate relationship with my success. There was some bitterness there that I didn't understand until recently but I told him that if I ever did a record I wanted him to play on it.

My relationship with Music Row has always been from my end optimistic and hopeful that there is more than one way to approach the writing recording and marketing of an album.

I've been obsessed with seeing life through music. My records my relationship with records my relationship with rock stars everything that surrounds it has been really one of the only ways that I ever started to understand the world.

Creatively I thought we were still viable and could do more records. But our working relationship just wasn't happening at all and our chemistry as people broke down because of that.

Though I still have no semblance of a life outside of Nine Inch Nails at the moment I realize my goals have gone from getting a record deal or selling another record to being a better person more well-rounded having friends having a relationship with somebody.

Most of my relationships have been like that - with record companies. I've never had a legitimate business relationship with a company. I've always had a personal relationship with someone in the company.

I've never had a relationship with a record executive. I always went to the record company by someone that liked my playing. Then they would get fired and I'd be left with the record company. And then - because they got fired - the record company wouldn't do anything for me.

I record all of my music with authentic instruments in a studio before we start editing doing many many versions. The music shapes the film as we edit so it has an organic relationship to the content.