Your net worth to the world is usually determined by what remains after your bad habits are subtracted from your good ones.
There is no fear before and no fear after. We give our best.
Only weeks after Oslo began when nearly all the world and most of Israel was drunk with the idea of peace I argued that a Palestinian society not constrained by democratic norms would be a fear society that would pose a grave threat to Israel.
There's always an element of fear that you need to work a lot until people get sick and tired of you or finally figure out that you're a fraud after all!
I have a fear of poverty in old age. I have this vision of myself living in a skip and eating cat food. It's because I'm freelance and I've never had a proper job. I don't have a pension and my savings are dwindling. I always thought someone would just come along and look after me.
I cannot give a single concert at which I do not play one piece after the other in an agony of terror because my memory threatens to fail me. This fear torments me for days beforehand.
You know that day after day of Oh God what am I going to do with myself feeling? The fear of the emptiness that it implies keeps me going.
Going to parties usually makes me feel depressed just because I have such social fear after meeting people.
As with most phobias the fear of flying does make some sense but if ever there was a fear worth quashing then this is it. After all life is short and there's a great big world to explore out there.
You know I never used to be a bad flyer but I did start to have a fear of flying after I shot a movie where I was terrorized on a plane. I made Wes Craven's 'Red Eye'. I don't think they're linked but it does make me pause and wonder if they are so perhaps I will explore that in therapy some day.