When you really deep down look at it we go to bed every night get up every morning stay here for 70 or 80 years and then we die.
Somebody said to me this morning 'To what do you attribute your longevity?' I don't know. I mean I couldn't have planned my life out better. By all accounts I should be dead! The abuse I put my body through: the drugs the alcohol the lifestyle I've lived the last 30 years!
I've been keeping a diary for thirty-three years and write in it every morning. Most of it's just whining but every so often there'll be something I can use later: a joke a description a quote. It's an invaluable aid when it comes to winning arguments. 'That's not what you said on February 3 1996 ' I'll say to someone.
I am so blessed. I've been way over-blessed. At 64 years old I look forward to going to bed every night so I can wake up in the morning and see what blessing is going to come my way that day. Because you never ever know what God's got in store for you.
I myself spent nine years in an insane asylum and I never had the obsession of suicide but I know that each conversation with a psychiatrist every morning at the time of his visit made me want to hang myself realizing that I would not be able to cut his throat.
After all those years as a woman hearing 'not thin enough not pretty enough not smart enough not this enough not that enough ' almost overnight I woke up one morning and thought 'I'm enough.'
Well I needed the work - that's the honest answer. I haven't worked for a while a couple of years. So I thought it would be nice to get back to work and earn some money.
I've been very well remunerated for my talents over the years so I really don't need the public's money.
Never ever invest money that you will need prior to three to five years - minimum.
People assume I'm out there having this great life but money doesn't erase the pain. When you're young you barrel through life making choices without thinking of repercussions. A few years down the line you wake up in a certain place and wonder how the hell you got there.