I read and walked for miles at night along the beach writing bad blank verse and searching endlessly for someone wonderful who would step out of the darkness and change my life. It never crossed my mind that that person could be me.

I had some vague memory of visiting Canberra as a lad when we came up with my father by car. But when I made the long train journey from Sydney to Canberra and arrived at the little stop I did wonder slightly whether this really was the national capital.

If I had done what I was programmed to do I would now be sitting in a car factory looking at the sizes of wheels or wondering how to get credit to start a new factory in Russia.

My health is wonderful. I work out. I'm working. Playing music. I have a beautiful wife a nice home a nice car I got money in the bank. I got three beautiful dogs that love me. Like I said I'm blessed. I survived.

I think like everybody else in New Hampshire when I pull up to fill up my car and I pay $50 I get upset. And I'm wondering if these prices are legitimate.

When you walk the track and you see a corner and realise you were going round it at 160mph you wonder who could be so stupid to take a corner at that speed. But in the car you don't even think about that.

My professional life has been a constant record of disillusion and many things that seem wonderful to most men are the every-day commonplaces of my business.

I cannot stand the people who get wonderful starts in show business and who abuse it. Lindsay Lohan and Charlie Sheen for example although there are plenty of others too. They are the most blessed people in the world and they don't appreciate it.

I am just at that stage of wondering where I go from here. I came into this business almost by accident but now it has become serious. What started as a bit of fun something to do other than be a model has taken on a different career curve. I have been forced to ask where that curve is going to end up.

It's wonderful to have the most important thing in the world there first thing in the morning. And especially in this business where the opportunity to think everything is about you is there every day now I really know that it isn't all about me.