I thought I was going to be killed. The casualties were so heavy it was just a given. I learned to take each day each mission as it came. That's an attitude I've carried into my professional life. I take each case each job as it comes.

I think I meant that given the circumstances of my childhood I had the illusion that it's easier to be alone. To have your relationships be casual and also to pose as a solitary person because it was more romantic. You know I was raised on the idea of the ramblin' man and the loner.

I like to be alone so I can write. But focus can hurt you. I don't want to be some stress casualty in early middle age.