On the other hand I believe there's hope because the breakdown and the repair are happening simultaneously.
The difficulty of IVF or of any fertility issues is the hope and the shattered hope the dream that it might happen this time and then it doesn't happen.
I hope you will go out and let stories happen to you and that you will work them water them with your blood and tears and you laughter till they bloom till you yourself burst into bloom.
If you keep thinking about what you want to do or what you hope will happen you don't do it and it won't happen.
My divorce came to me as a complete surprise. That's what happens when you haven't been home in eighteen years.
I fantasize about having a manual job where I can come home at night read a book and not feel responsible for what will happen the next day.
I am at home in many cultures. I live actively in three continents and I've done that for most of my life so I just make films as I see the world and that happens to speak to people. I do things that I want to do.
With fiction you can talk about plot character and narrative whereas a poem brings home the fact that everything that happens in a work of literature happens in terms of language. And this is daunting stuff to deal with.
The best thing that ever happened to me is that nothing happened in writing. I ended up working for engineering companies and that's where I found my material in the everyday struggle between capitalism and grace. Being broke and tired you don't come home your best self.
No I can tell you one of the first things that happens to a home secretary when they arrive in the job is that they are given a briefing about the security matters that they will be dealing with and I deal with security matters on a daily basis.