I don't know where I'm going to be in three years. Because I have the feeling that the future is so full of possibilities to stop being an actress to do something else... for me the future is just a huge bunch of discoveries.
I had been feeling a little rum. I didn't think it was anything serious because years ago I felt a lump and it was benign. I assumed this would be too. It kind of takes the wind out of your sails and I don't know what the future holds if anything.
There is no word for feeling nostalgic about the future but that's what a parent's tears often are a nostalgia for something that has not yet occurred. They are the pain of hope the helplessness of hope and finally the surrender to hope.
My entire life has been an attempt to get back to the kind of feelings you have on a field. The sense of brotherhood the esprit de corps the focus - there being no past or future just the ball. As trite as it sounds I was happiest playing ball.
Los Angeles gives one the feeling of the future more strongly than any city I know of. A bad future too like something out of Fritz Lang's feeble imagination.
I remember listening to the radio as a kid and finding that the songs always made me feel more peaceful. Funny but the more hurtin' the music was the better it made me feel. I think of that now when I write my songs. I may not be feelin' the blues myself but I'm writing them for other people who have a hard life.
When you're out of sight for as long as I was there's a funny feeling of betrayal that comes over people when they see you again.
As soon as you are trying to be funny or dramatic that's when things start feeling fake and boring.
If you tell the truth about how you're feeling it becomes funny.
Most comedy is based on getting a laugh at somebody else's expense. And I find that that's just a form of bullying in a major way. So I want to be an example that you can be funny and be kind and make people laugh without hurting somebody else's feelings.