Almost all of your life is lived by the seat of your pants one unexpected event crashing into another with no pattern or reason and then you finally reach a point around my age where you spend more time than ever looking back. Why did this happen? Look where that led? You see the shape of things.
I just yesterday returned from a trip where I photographed a woman with two children whom I photographed first when she was the age of the older of the two children.
I'm never overawed by a situation and I think that's because I've always looked several years older than I am. So because people were treating me like I was 40 when I was 29 I've always felt in control of a situation. People used to say when you're 32 you'll look 32. I'm still waiting for that moment where my age catches up with my appearance.
I think you have to be a little bit strict. You can't be friend and their parent in a lot of situations especially in this day and age where it's so dangerous for kids. So there's a bit of sternness I guess in the way I raise my kids.
Some broad themes brought me where I am today. At a very young age my hobby became thinking and finding connections.
I grew up on a farm in a small town where you do or say one thing and everybody knows about it. You see it happen there's always the town gossip - 'Oh did you hear about so and so or did you hear what went on in this household?' So I learned at a very young age just to keep my mouth shut.
When I was younger my whole sense of self-worth was based on whether or not I was working which was awful. And I had a baby at 20 years old so it wasn't just about me. At around the age of 30 there was a stretch where I wasn't working - certainly not on anything I liked anyway - and I started to do other things.
I would love a family. I'm at the age where the wish for a child gets stronger. But who knows.
We live in an age in an era where there is so much negativity there is so much violence in the world there is so much unrest and people are at war that I wanted to promote the word love and red signifies love.
It lies in human nature that where you experience your first laughs you also remember the age kindly.