It's as if I were collaborating with myself revealing my relationship to the material. My hand would make the drawing. Then my mouth would transmit it.
A lot has been written about Tony Perkins and myself and I figured Let's get it straight. I had a relationship with Tony for two to three years but those are only threads in the tapestry of my whole life.
My character Lena is somebody who responds to people in a very simple way. I didn't have to take myself off to a darkened room to concentrate I just had to try and be open. It's an interesting subtle relationship.
There was a whole language that I could never make function for myself in relationship to painting and that was attitudes like tortured struggle pain.
I love changing. I hate it when people try to box me in to a relationship or in a work context. Any situation where I feel boxed in freaks me out. And I feel the need to reinvent myself or I'll get bored.
For me living in the closet corroded my ability to have an honest open relationship with my God my loved ones my constituency and myself.
I can sort of do what I want. Maybe I have to work harder to prove myself in some new relationship because they've heard some wacky stories about me. But at least I can get the meeting.
I always say I'd rather be miserable by myself than unhappy in a relationship.
In my relationship I was giving myself away to make the relationship better but in actuality wasn't doing better by doing that. I became less of a man.
I just want my relationship to be more for myself rather than a public statement.