I'd say to any woman get out of that bad relationship that's turning you into a shell of your former self. Learn from it and get out. Then wait enjoy yourself and your friends because when what you want comes along you'll spot it.
The better you know yourself the better your relationship with the rest of the world.
The whole of science and one is tempted to think the whole of the life of any thinking man is trying to come to terms with the relationship between yourself and the natural world. Why are you here and how do you fit in and what's it all about.
Sexuality is a big issue but there are others - how much you commit to a relationship to social obligation to honesty and being honest with yourself.
The way I become friends with somebody is a slow process. You can't just spill your guts and tell them everything about yourself and expect them to listen and understand you because you don't know them. It's the same thing with a relationship.
So then the relationship of self to other is the complete realization that loving yourself is impossible without loving everything defined as other than yourself.
Some people are your relatives but others are your ancestors and you choose the ones you want to have as ancestors. You create yourself out of those values.
Information can bring you choices and choices bring power - educate yourself about your options and choices. Never remain in the dark of ignorance.
The world is not going into concentric blocs of power. It is actually going into a diffusion of power with more centres of decision-making than ever in human civilisation. That requires you to place yourself in far more hubs of power than ever before.
It's a life's journey of finding ourselves finding our power and living for yourself not for everyone else.