If I were sufficiently romantic I suppose I'd have killed myself long ago just to make people talk about me. I haven't even got the conviction to make a successful drunkard.
When I was younger many of my romantic escapades were just a means of simply avoiding being by myself. I was afraid of feeling lonely afraid I wouldn't know what to say to myself.
I'm not about to talk about what's romantic in my life - I figure if you talk about it once then that's an open invitation for everyone to dig into your personal life even further. So I just keep my private life to myself.
The Romantic poets were the prototype ramblers and I've often found myself following in their footsteps - although perhaps not all of their footsteps since a typical walk for Samuel T. Coleridge might last two days and cover 145km.
Suddenly I've got an overwhelming desire to surround myself with the aura of classical and Romantic art.
If I despised myself it would be no compensation if everyone saluted me and if I respect myself it does not trouble me if others hold me lightly.
I have women coming up to me and saying: 'I love your character! She's so empowered. She takes control she gets what she wants.' That's another side of her. And I respect that in Joan. She says and does things that I would never allow myself to do.
If I am still doing what I'm doing and I still have respect in this town haven't done anything completely and utterly stupid then I'll be happy with myself.
How sick one gets of being 'good ' how much I should respect myself if I could burst out and make everyone wretched for twenty-four hours embody selfishness.
I would never want to live in L.A. and I made that decision years ago so I never chose that path for myself although I have much respect for those that do it at a high level.