From time to time I'll look back through the personal journals I've scribbled in throughout my life the keepers of my raw thoughts and emotions. The words poured forth after my dad died when I went through a divorce and after I was diagnosed with breast cancer. There are so many what-ifs scribbled on those pages.

As much as I transferred my mother to Elizabeth Shore of The Black Dahlia as much as her dad mutated into an obsession with crime in general well I have thought about other things throughout the years.

Throughout the history of our young nation we have seen our military go bravely into battle armed with courage and willing to make the ultimate sacrifice.

Throughout the years many Christian women have told me of their great respect for the bravery and courage evident in my work perhaps even gesturing to their own Isis earrings or a Nile River Goddess pendants.

I know that throughout their history the people of the United States defended their freedom their liberty their justice and their rights - if need be - with their lives. I think their courage is so admirable.

There's been a lot of really cool stuff that's happened to me throughout my career and I remember everything but I don't think I savored every moment of it like I should have or like I do now.

I was never considered cool throughout my teens: a very important time to be accepted by someone especially your peers. Yes I had all the screaming women but the guys hated my guts.

I always get bored with my hair. That's why I would always change it throughout my career.

As I have said for many years throughout this land we're borrowing money from China to buy oil from the Persian Gulf to burn it in ways that destroy the future of human civilization. Every bit of that has to change.

The future is not Big Government. Self-serving politicians. Powerful bureaucrats. This has been tried tested throughout history. The result has always been disaster. President Obama your agenda is not new. It's not change and it's not hope.