I like making sci-fi movies because I like watching sci-fi movies. I like watching horror. I like being in a horror movie. I'm a fan. My perspective's a little different just because I get to participate as well as spectate.
As I've gotten older I've occasionally found myself nostalgic for earlier periods of solitude though I realize that's also likely a false nostalgia as I know there was nothing I wanted more during those periods than to not be alone whatever that means.