There are only two ways of telling the complete truth - anonymously and posthumously.
It's an incredible con job when you think about it to believe something now in exchange for something after death. Even corporations with their reward systems don't try to make it posthumous.
It's been such a deep and amazing journey for me getting close to John Keats and also I love Shelley and Byron. I mean the thing about the Romantic poets is that they've got the epitaph of romantic posthumously. They all died really young and Keats the youngest of them all.
I've definitely you know been with women. And I've had great relationships with them where I was definitely in love. It's just I grew to a point where deep inside I knew that I could never truly have a relationship with a woman. I don't know if they ever suspected. It was never brought up.