If I take death into my life acknowledge it and face it squarely I will free myself from the anxiety of death and the pettiness of life - and only then will I be free to become myself.
But when I lose my temper I find it difficult to forgive myself. I feel I've failed. I can be calm in a crisis in the face of death or things that hurt badly. I don't get hysterical which may be masochistic of me.
I'm opening up my heart to the idea of dating. It's funny - my friends would always come to me for romantic advice. I know nothing and things have changed since I was dating in high school! I'm really trying hard to spend this time working on myself.
I'm not interested in dating. I like being with my own best friend me. Certain women particularly older women cannot believe I like going to a social event by myself. But I do.
If I'm with a man is that going to prevent me from achieving my goal? What sacrifices will I have to make in terms of being myself if I'm with a man? Something that young women find out really quickly is that when you start dating all of a sudden you're supposed to have a role. You're not allowed to just be yourself.
My mom is going to kill me for talking about sleeping with people. But I don't want to put myself in the position where I'm in a monogamous relationship right now. I'm not dating just one person. 'Sex and the City' changed everything for me because those girls would sleep with so many people.
I have stepped off the relationship scene to come to terms with myself. I have spent most of my adult life being 'someone's girlfriend' and now I am happy being single.
My boyfriend calls me 'princess' but I think of myself more along the lines of 'monkey' and 'retard'.
The most challenging part of being a dad is self-restraint. So often your instinct is to teach and tell. I am constantly reminding myself to listen to them.
I actually study boxing - my dad was a Golden Gloves champion so I learned how to fight at a very young age. Growing up in Brooklyn you always had to watch your back so I pretty much learned to protect myself.