I think happiness comes from self-acceptance. We all try different things and we find some comfortable sense of who we are. We look at our parents and learn and grow and move on. We change.
You say that your hope is in God and he will I am sure stand by you. But you must not forget that you have been given worldly means to use and employ against human arrogance and wrong it is necessary to see such things with a broad mind in order to oppose them.
