Many things have been said about what happened but I don't know either. Maybe someday. One thing I'm sure of is that all the things that have happened to me good and bad happy and sad have made me what I am today.
If you're truly in a band and you guys have been together for a long time there's a family bond that you have. In fact I've talked about this with therapists especially if you're talking about a relationship because when you're with somebody you're going to your family and she's alone.