I always loved working as an actress but I didn't understand why I couldn't just opt out of being famous. And then I realized you can and I think I did. And eventually I came to understand that you can do that and also keep working.
Desperation is the perfume of the young actor. It's so satisfying to have gotten rid of it. If you keep smelling it it can drive you crazy. In this business a lot of people go nuts go eccentric even end up dead from it. Not my plan.